Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Ain't Feelin' Great

My throat is scratchy and my back hurts. I haven't had a cold in a really long time and I hope to keep this streak up. If the scratchy throat goes away, I think I'll stay healthy.

But it's more than physical for me. Things are changing and it's unsettling. I made a decision to go back to school while working and now I'm questioning my decision. I told one of my bosses about my decision and she handled it well. However, she's not the only one who can fire me. And it isn't like I'm completely sold on my job. Right now, I'm sold on stability and keeping my job for now. I'm starting to second guess this decision.

Other changes - one brother got engaged and pretty much only talks about the wedding which is going to be in two years. You heard me right, two years. He can be seen looking through wedding magazines and searching websites at all hours. Another brother is going to live at my aunt's house during the week so he's closer to school. It's not that these changes are bad; they are just unsettling. I just need and want to find even footing again.

At least God is always there and will never change. I've got to keep reminding myself of that.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

New Beginnings